Buy nothing challenge April
One of our favorite blogs (that’s not on the blog roll. asrai needs to update that), Crunchy Chicken is having a buy nothing (new) in April Challenge.
- No new clothes
- No new gadgets
- No new furniture or housewares
- No salon services
- No makeup
- No tools
- No whatever the hell else people buy
So since we don’t buy any of those things, we’re in. In fact we buy almost nothing except books and I try to not even buy those. Bookmooch anyone?
But, one caveat for us. We have to buy a new cell phone this month. I’ve dropped the Nokia (virgin prepaid) a few too many times and the last time it went flying and the top came off. I managed to get it back on and it still rings (oddly) but after you click the answer button (nothing shows on the screen) no one sound goes anywhere. So … new phone. I just put $25 on too. Otherwise I likely wouldn’t bother. Or, prolly our SO would make us becuase we have a 30 minute drive to and from work and he worries about us on the road.
Writing
I can’t write. I have terrible writer’s block brought on by shame. When I write my fantasies out, I get turned on. And then I don’t know how to deal with this. Ideally, I just like to get off and get rid of that horny feeling. But, after I get off I don’t feel like writing sex anymore and thus it’s not terribly productive way to write.
So I’m stuck. Or letting myself stay stuck. Part of it is, I’m afraid to finish my novel. It started as a NaNoWriMo project. And I loved it. I’m not so sure lately as I’m feeling anti-romance lately, but that’s another tangent altogether. So anyway, I’m about five to seven planned scenes from finishing the whole thing. Then I have to edit. I’m afraid to edit. I need someone to motivate me and encourage me and not let me get away with this resistence crap.
I’m also working on a corruption story in the back of my mind. Girl gets corrupted and thus ends up corrupted another.
I’m just meandering aimlessly right now. So I’ll leave with a link.
Radical Vixen’s blog where I recently won a prize. She’s a pretty cool sex worker with a few political rants thrown in.
Stuck Energy
I’ve been working 2 jobs for the past 5 weeks so I barely get to check my email these past few weeks, thus no blog posts. But I miss it. And coming up, Urban Tantra. Exercies, thoughts and sex. Because it’s spring and I can’t get enough ecstacy.
So alright, stuck energy. 10 year old stuck energy.
For the last year I’ve had a mad crush on this guy at my work. (sorta, he works in the building I clean and comes in often.). The obsessive nature of it was becoming increasingly disturbing and I couldn’t figure out why. I have crushes, they usually fade quickly after a few fantasies of against the wall sex. Anyway …
I couldn’t understand the nature of this one. But, it hit me. He reminds me of the guy I was stalking 10 years ago. Like exactly 10 years ago! I thought he was the most divine creature to grace this earth. Of course, I was a loser and stalking him so he wouldn’t give me the time of day.
I don’t know how to work that energy out of my system ’cause it’s fucking with more than my mental faculties to operate normally around people. But at least I know where the problem is.
Liberation Update
Since my revolutionary liberation epiphany I’ve been feeling overly sexual. Not compulsive. I just feel horny all the time. I want sex. I think about sex. I think about places to have sex. I think about sexual positions. My genitals and breasts are tingling with desire to be touched.
That’s all good. Except, I’m having trouble with fantasies. I used to get off really easily with my own fantasies. Now I can’t seem to get a good one going. I don’t even really have an interest in reading other people’s fantasies, like I used to.
I feel so sexual. I don’t have any desire to be sexual. Well, that’s not entirely true, I’ve had the urge to be sexual with my partner many times. And I’ve done so many times also. But that’s neither here nor there. What happened to my desire to masturbate? I love it. Anyway, it may return. I’m going to go play on literotic and see if I feel anything from it.
